God made you Gay!

   It is time for people in this country to really wake up. I have read some comments on other sites. People in the western world still don't get it. Christian are still telling same sex attracted people they are going to hell. This is forcing a lot of children to kill themselves rather than come out. I saw the negative side of this issue destroy my brother. My brother and I grow up in a middle class neighborhood in the 70's. Our parents made us attend church regularly. I remember a lot of the sermons... However, I remember one sermon in particular that stuck in my head. It was the sermon about Sodom and Gomorrah. The Preacher did not focus on homosexuality. He focused on the fact that these guys wanted to rape the male angel that accompanied the man of God. The man of God offers his own virgin daughters the men did not want them. The man of God had to allow God to destroy the land because of the perversion that was going on. I believe there has been a story similar to this story spread across the western world. I have nothing against preachers... in fact; I admire charismatic preachers that can teach the word of God in its entirety.

However, this passage has been misrepresented by many preachers and teachers.  The way it was explained to us ... God destroyed the land to get rid of all homosexuals. My brother and I thought that was the truth. 

As my brother got older he starts to display a more feminineside. My dad being to dislike my brother. My parents would constantly try to make him walk "right"  and talk "right". My father  told my brother he couldn't play with me anymore. Because, I was a girl and I was making him play girl games ( guilty!).  My mother got the pastor to pray for my brother with anointing oil. She believed he was possessed... she just couldn't pray that "gay" out of him. My brother was gifted academically and very charismatic.  However, by the time my brother got to high school he had already been made fun of by classmates and rejected by my parents. He was very sensitive about being called gay. I didn't know how much the name calling, questioning, jokes and rejection affected him... until the day he went home early from school. I knew something was wrong because he loved to walking home with me.

When I came in the door my brother was laying on the floor with a bottle of pills near him... I immediately call 911. This was first  attempt on his life. Think it was mostly a cry for help and understanding. My brother recovered from this episode. But, my parents didn't recover as easy.  At this point my parents decided he was to much to handle with out professional assistance. They  to put him into a short term group home. This was supposed to help the family work out issue. Through this cancelling section they never face the fact that my brother was gay. They didn't ask him they just said he was a problem child that needs to be corrected. 

When returned home ... he left on his own terms he was only 16.  He begins to live the gay life style hanging out in the bars etc. By 1989 he contacted HIV which was an automatic death sentence in the 80's and early 90's. He got really sick I took care of him when he was unable to walk because his immune system was too weak, he caught a cold virus. While I was caring for him I talked to him about giving his life to the Lord. I said brother, I love you and God Loves you. Jesus is knocking at the door of your heart let him in. My brother looked at me with the most sincere tearful look and said God don't love me,  I am just going get up and do the something ... I am still going to be gay and God burned Sodom and Gomorrah the same is going to happen to me.

God spoke to my heart at that moment he told me to tell my brother God loves you and he made you gay. He was you to trust him with your heart my brother look at me and said yes I accept Jesus as my lord savior I didn't know he loved me until today. My brother like so many other gay guys lost his life to AIDS. He was only twenty years old. Every since that day  I often wonder how many gay people died not knowing how much God loves them and he made them gay. I am here to tell you God loves you and he made you Gay!